Is the grass always greener on the other side?

It started when I was nine and has continued for nine years. It is something that I will have to endure for the rest of my life. November 2, 2001 was the day that my life changed FOREVER! I was admitted to the hospital and shortly there after diagnosed with something known as Lupus. I did not know what was happening to me or even what was next. The next few years were the most terrifying and difficult times I would ever endure.

Most of the time, a nine year old girl would be spending her days at school and her weekends going to birthday parties and spending "fun time with her family. Well for me, that was not the case. For a month, when I was nine, I spent every day and night in the hospital. It then proceeded to monthly Chemotherapy treatments, days at a time in the hospital and the rest of the time at home. I missed more than half of my fourth grade year, and the second half, I could only attend half days, if that. It finally went into Chemo treatments every three months, but this continued all the way through 6th grade. So, was my life easy? No not necessarily, but that is only because of the way in which I coped.

The choice was always up to me. I had the decision weather I was going to hide from the awful truth or if I was going to make the best of my situation. At first, I hid from what seemed to be taking over my life, but i finally realized that it was important that I do not hide. I must take control of the situation, because if I had not, I would not ever lead a happy life.

"Life is a journey, not a destination, there are no mistakes, just chances we’ve taken lay down your regrets cause all we have is now" -A Beautiful Day : India.Arie